The Secretary Will Disavow Any Knowledge

Fandom: CWRPS
Pairing: Jeff/Jensen, Jared/Jensen
Rating: Adult
Warnings: Slavefic AU. Language. Dark themes.
Disclaimer: This is in no way a true story.
Word Count: 2,288
AN: Previous parts found here. Banner by bloodquartz, who has my most enthusiastic thanks.

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( He is not mine, I am his. )

So my friend, KA Mitchell, blogged over here about her slashing roots.

After the whole putting Ken and Chip in bed together while playing Barbie at six or seven, what was my first slash? Of course, I was slashing before I knew what it was, or that there was even a word for it.

She then put the question to me (and the audience at large, but I got an email *g*) what was my first memory of slashing, whether I knew what it was or not, and it proved to be a really interesting question for me.

But that's not entirely what I'm here to talk about.

( Something happened here. )

Fandom: CWRPS
Pairing: Jeff/Jensen, Jared/Jensen, assorted others.
Rating: Adult
Warnings: Slavefic AU. Language.
Disclaimer: This is in no way a true story.
Word Count: 1,913
AN: Previous parts found here. Banner made by bloodquartz.

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( If you were mine, I'd want to keep you all locked up, too. )

Fandom: CWRPS
Pairing: Jeff/Jensen, Jared/Jensen, Ever Carradine/Leah Cairns
Rating: Adult
Warnings: Slavefic AU. Language.
Disclaimer: This is in no way a true story.
Word Count: 1,701
AN: Previous parts found here. Banner made by bloodquartz, who I STILL OWE AN EMAIL TO, dammit, but has my deepest and most heartfelt appreciation.

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( Jesus Christ, Jeff, I told you I was coming. )

Every time I do a remix, I am immediately possessed by the desire to write about it. Not the story itself, so much, as the process of remixing, the idea of it, the different ways and means of going about it. And each time I get bogged down in the nearly infinite ways there are to go about a remix and the relative hopelessness of codifying what a remix is and what it's not. More and more, I think it's something you have to almost get at an instinctive level, rather than anything that can be taught. And it's complicated by the fact that what a remix is (or is not) depends largely on what baggage you bring into it.

I'm really not happy with the story I wrote for kamikazeremix and I'm going to try to talk about why—and about remixing in general—without getting into too many specifics that will give me away.

( This is my writing chakra. )

Fandom: CWRPS
Pairing: Jeff/Jensen, Jared/Jensen
Rating: Adult
Warnings: Slavefic AU. Language. Child abuse. Dark themes.
Disclaimer: This is in no way a true story.
Word Count: 2,312
AN: Previous parts found here. Banner by bloodquartz, who has my most enthusiastic thanks.

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( Thought you'd like waking up to this rather than that. )

Fandom: Supernatural
Pairing: Sam/Dean
Rating: Adult
Warnings: Pending. Assume the usual: violence, language, smut, etc. Slight crossover with Angel.
Spoilers: None. Futurefic.
Word Count: 1, 485
AN: This is a work in progress. For my spn_25 prompt #3: Ritual. Heartverse. Late Year 18. Knowledge of the universe, in general, is recommended. Lucas is from the S1 episode "Dead in the Water". Connor is from Angel. For maygra.

Previous parts found here.

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( Someone I wasn't expecting to see. Seems to be the day for it. )

Fandom: CWRPS
Pairing: Jeff/Jensen, Jared/Jensen
Rating: Adult
Warnings: Slavefic AU. Language.
Disclaimer: This is in no way a true story.
Word Count: 2,635
AN: Previous parts found here.

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( It's nothing to him if Jeff wants him to fuck Jared. )

Fandom: CWRPS
Pairing: Jeff/Jensen
Rating: Adult
Warnings: Slavefic AU. Language.
Disclaimer: This is in no way a true story.
Word Count: 1,386
AN: Previous parts can be found here. I haven't thanked her properly for it yet, but below the cut is a banner that bloodquartz made for me. It's lovely and I can't thank her enough! Isn't it GORGEOUS??

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( Jared is *exasperating*. )

From sdwolfpup:

A hacking tool was released that automates the attack of an existing Gmail vulnerability. Because it makes it much easier to do when it's automated, it's much more likely that people will use it to ill effect. In order to protect yourself, please do the following:

1. Log into your GMail account
2. Go into Settings (click 'Settings' in the upper right-hand corner)
3. Under the first tab ('General'), scroll to the bottom of the screen where it says "Browser Connection"
4. Select "Always use https"
5. Click 'Save Changes'
6. Log out of your account and then back in to have it take effect

For further information on why, see this article.

There are other security suggestions in the comments that are worth reading as well, even if you don't use GMail at all.



From inlovewithnight: Fox Trying to Kill Watchmen Movie. Fox, you are a horrible company run by RUINERS. YOU DO NOT GET THE EXTRA COOKIE.

OMFG! THE FIANCE JUST BOUGHT ME AN AIRLINE TICKET TO WINCON!! I'M DEFINITELY COMING!

I may have to sleep in hallways, but I'M COMING!! YAY!

Fandom: CWRPS
Pairing: Jeff/Jensen
Rating: Adult
Warnings: Slavefic AU. Language. Implied non-con/rape.
Disclaimer: This is in no way a true story.
Word Count: 1,250
AN: Previous parts here.

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( Shut up about Jensen already, all right? )

Fandom: CWRPS
Pairing: Jeff/Jensen
Rating: Adult
Warnings: Slavefic AU. Language.
Disclaimer: This is in no way a true story.
Word Count: 1,767
AN: Previous parts here.

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( Did you want me to go somewhere? )

The way to make sports a LOT more interesting to PT:

"Zach Thomas is no fool. He HIRES someone to pull his ass muscles." ~Hard Knocks

Also, at the risk of being incredibly gauche, would it be okay for me to just give y'all a blanket "Thank you!" to everyone who congratulated me and The Fiance on our engagement? You know I'm bad with comments to begin with and right now the thought of typing "Thanks!" more than a hundred time sort of makes me want to cry. But believe me, the thanks are heartfelt.

And while we're talking thanks, drvsilla thank you so much for the vgift. It was a lovely and unexpected surprise.

...we now return you to your regular fic-reading.

Fandom: CWPRS
Pairing: Jeff/Jensen
Rating: Adult
Warnings: Slavefic AU. Language.
Disclaimer: This is in no way a true story.
Word Count: 1,472
AN: Previous parts found here. I don't think there's anything left to say, is there?

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( Jensen's nothing like Mary-Louise. )

Fandom: CWRPS
Pairing: Jeff/Jensen
Rating: Adult
Warnings: Slavefic AU. Language. Drugs.
Disclaimer: This is in no way a true story.
Word Count: 1,386
AN: Previous parts found here. To beanside, mona1347 and nilchance, for enabling. And stories about Jeremy Sisto playing "gay chicken".

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( Is that what you want? )

Okay, I'm a pretty late for ibarw (International Blog Against Racism Week) at this point and my "participation" here is limited to pointing at something and going "YES. This." But.

This is a really excellent post by ciderpress that articulates a lot of the frustration and dispiritedness I've been feeling lately. I really want to quote the whole thing, but I'm going to settle for this excerpt:

I feel that the most painful experiences and the ones that just smart and niggle, they all come from the same place: white privilege. Privilege and the deep seated entitlement that it is okay to treat non-white people this way, it is okay to call us on our tone and words and actions while doing these things is something, this is an action and thought so natural that it does not warrant introspection. That it's okay to dictate our words and actions and our reactions, it's okay to hold this much power over us. And while there may be a difference in intent in deliberate racism and casual non-deliberate racism, they all hurt me.

Racism isn't a removed and academic concept, it isn't something I read about in a book or watched in a film or something that people have to point out to me. The hurt that I imagine a white person feels when they are confronted with something they did or something they said, the incredible defensiveness and entitlement that they feel allows them to say completely unacceptable things -- I'm not quite sure how to measure that against my own experiences. People keep telling me I need to understand and be tolerant, that I need to tread softly, that I need to be even more pathetic, even here, in fandom because doing otherwise is harmful and hurtful. And when people say that, I feel very keenly how much people do not realise the depth I hurt.

Fandom: CWRPS
Pairing: Jeff/Jensen
Rating: Adult
Warnings: Slavefic AU. Language.
Disclaimer: This is in no way a true story.
Word Count: 1,826
AN: Previous parts here. I hate this story. I hate this story. Except in the way that I completely love it and can't seem to stop thinking about it.

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( There, that wasn't so bad, right? )

From altfriday5:

1. List 5 things which are basic common knowledge in your culture, which people outside are unfamiliar with. This is not about obscurity, but something everyday to you, that others go "bzuh?" at.

2. What was the last book you read that was written by a person who is a different race than you? Do you seek out books written by people of other races? Why? Why not?

3. What did you eat at dinner last night? Would you call it ethnic food? Why?

4. Has your gender presentation changed over the last 5 years? Has this change/lack of change been a deliberate choice on your part?

5. Do you discuss race and racism in your livejournal/blog or in person? Why have you made that choice?

6. Bonus question. Were you aware of International Blog Against Racism Week? Did you choose to participate in it? Why or why not?

( My Answers... )

To explain this dream. (C&P'd from my email on the subject)

( The Wire, Dragons, and Cursed Smurfs, OH MY! )